Monthly Archives: August 2013

Aug21

Growing pains

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My thoughts and emotions today are all over the place. Good luck reading.

No more claiming to not be a morning person. 6am starts have sorted that one out. I have a choice here and I want to be as alive as possible so the challenge is to be as bright eyed as is humanly possible.

So I am one of those fussy, emotional mummies. Who knew ! Took me for ever to settle myself and get off that bus. Today’s mantra ? My baby’s going to be ok. First time for everything, right? ( first time putting my daughter on the school bus)

Note to self: Other people are capable of looking out for my child too. Chill!

I can’t celebrate another year of your existence Mum. Memories and emotional recollections be my solitude. What ifs are a momentary relief but your love , now that’s a keeper.

Extra hour to my morning – more writing time!

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Aug19

Procrastinator-Perfectionist

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I have a project I’m working on and for a long time I just couldn’t get started. The usual reasons of not enough hours in the day, too many things on my list always occupied the space in my mind that should have been creating.

But one thing stuck with me when I woke up this morning; i’m so nervous! I’m very passionate about this project and I want it to go right. But the fear of messing it up has gripped me into a state of do-nothing. My mind has then come up with as many excuses not to start but I’m all out. The desire to do this and see it through has exceeded my unfounded fear of failure. And for some reason today, my day has been laid out in such a way that I have all the time to get things done.

Project work recommences today and I’m going to do my best. That’s good enough for me. The rest I leave to the Universe.

Stay blessed and just do it!

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Aug14

The Fixer

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The fixer!

I’m officially a Scandal addict and look forward to each new episode with vicious anticipation.

Watching Olivia Pope deal with each client’s issues got me thinking of how some people gravitate towards being natural fixers. We all know people like that, always on hand to help out. Some of us are unrepentant fixers; it just comes naturally.

Everyone has issues in their lives, even fixers like Olivia Pope but so often they’re out there helping out other people with little attention to the storm brewing in their own teacups.

It’s tough being a fixer but instinct constantly overrides common sense. Just because you know, love or are related to someone doesn’t mean their problems are yours to fix. But the hardest part for a fixer is not being able to help someone especially one you love. There are things above any fixer, even one of Olivia Pope’s calibre.

But one thing a fixer always needs to know is to take time out for self. You can’t give out something when it’s all spent. The world is full of problems to solve but they aren’t all ours to fix.

Note to self, take a break!

Stay blessed.

B

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Aug6

Mind control

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Self analysis
Self revocation
When one needs to be quiet
The mind creates endless banter
Designed to numb the soul searching
Needs
Numbed with pointless facts and fears
Self pity self conscious
The heart desires that which is denied
Wanting!
The fallacy is the independence of the mind
The truth is the interconnected ness of that which is one
Without mind the soul starves
And without hope and desire
The mind is little challenged
Peace is inevitable.
Just stop.

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