Just been going through my phone and found this from January 15 2011. No better way to immortalise it, than on the World Wide Web!

I love you Chloë!

I see now how children can become the center of their parents lives. I love you with a passion that knows no end . With a definite that knows no doubt.

I love the way you are so beautiful and unassuming. How you are so alive and vivacious . You light up a room with your infectious energy. You are energy personified . I love our conversations where you babble on and I pretend that I know what you are talking about. I hope one day to have a real conversation with you and laugh and cry(now we do!) .

I’m going through a lot right now but I know that I need to fix myself so I can be the mum you need, the mum you deserve . That means the next few days, weeks, and months are going to be filled with so much pain, fear, tears and regrets but I know that through all this I will find my purpose and direction. I will prevail. I will be your mother and I will be with you for many years to come. I am not going anywhere . I want to be there for you but I realize that I will have to let you go one day. When the time comes I know my love for you will guide me and comfort me.

You are my sunshine